Embryotic State

How do you convey the embryotic state of your heart?You may be feeling many things right now. But you are strong. Even in the embryotic state the unborn thrive and fight back against outside forces. Have you ever seen the footprint sticking out of a pregnant womans belly? Or heard the 'kicks' stories? I dare say that even before we are born, God has built within us the ability to fight. Kick against the outside pressures outside of our comfort zone. All the while he is forming us, he provides us a means to fight back. He instills in us a desire for comfort, peace, a place of stasis to float along in our own worlds. Yet, life isn't like that. But He know us, He created us. He gave us a desire to fight and rage against that which attacks us.So while you float in your embriotic state. While you curl up in emotional defense against that which attacks you.KNOW THIS:You will over come. God created you to Over come. God created you to kick and move and come into this world screaming and fighting. Knowing that with your first breathe, your first vision of light, you first memory...was that of a warrior fighting for survival. Fighting to succeed.Fighting to be known.

Nobody knows you

Sitting here thinking about loneliness. Sitting in our workplaces, at our homes, places where people are around us, feeling completely alone. I want that vacation back. I want people around me that know me and care about me as me and not what value I provide to them or what i can do for them. I want people who allow me to be crazy, happy, sad, and know me. I want to be able to dance in the rain (if it does that here), scream at the top of my lungs, and share in some deep romance that pushes loneliness to the farthest reaches of existance and disappears. I want to lay crying, surrounded by arms. Surrounded by slow breathing, and a sense, that those arms capture my loneliness, understand it, and bring me back to the place of childhood, where safe in a parents arms, I found peace.